Acha Septriasa - Sampai Menutup Mata

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau asa
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup tak
kan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

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Ma days are numbered..i dunno how i gonna overcum it. Dunno who to turn to. It seems tat i gotta be strong for myself. But still i dun understand why i did it. Why i did still do stupid tinks. Maybe i'm out of myself tat nyte. I dunno how i felt now...all so mixed up. Hurt, lonely, cold, hatred, sad, anger....all at once. Dunno how to express it here. Juz wanna be alone at tis moment. Yesterday went to national library alone to return and borrow sum books. Juz have to read sum stuff juz to put ma mind out of it. Yes i swear i miss him lyk hell but i dun even have the courage to contact him. I woke up at 5pm juz now...tot it was still 11 in the murnin..haha...the past few nyte i been having sleepless nyte. Only got to sleep around 4 or 5plus in the murnin...btw i adopted a new baby. I FOUND tis hamster. Dunno wat kind of breed yet. Gotta find out. Its dark brownish black in colour. Will update more bout it. Till here den...gotta go.

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Sometimes at night, when i look to the sky,
i start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do i love you? I think and smile,
because i know the list could run on for miles.
The whispers of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where i want to be.
The way that i feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that i dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities i see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what i feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

-lyni

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The ME Hidden Within.

This season is the time for happiness and cheer,
But look through my eyes and you will see a tear.

The words that I speak are never to be heard,
And all I want from you is your promising word.

No one ever listens to a word that I say,
All I need is for someone to point me into the traveling way.

Having no one to talk to makes the anger build within,
So I think hard and loud knowing I need to raise my chin.

I fight with myself all the time,
Wanting to do something but knowing it's a crime.

I just want all this anger within me to just come out,
I have this huge urge just to shout.

I just want to release the real me from being hidden within,
Sometimes I think all the things I do are a sin.

Please help release the me hidden within.

♥

Firstly i want to thank kak noi. So thoughtful of her to buy me a DURIAN cake, DURIAN roll and DURIAN puffs. gOsh!..i juz cant imagine it tat i can really swallowed all of tat less den 10mins. Maybe i'm juz crazy bout durians i guess. Aniwae thanks alot kak noi. I really owe her alot tis tym. I tot durians will make me soothe down but not as i tot of. Well...ppl still ask me whether have i found ma YELLOW shrek..gaWd!..lols..funny them. Tis few days i manage to put a false front. Ppl seen me smiling...but deep in me i noe i fake everytink. I cried so many nights and surprisingly natt realised tat. I dunno...maybe i took tat matter seriously. Ya but i juz cant take it. It really hurt me so much tat he dun understand ma situation. And worst more he dun even tried to understand me...I really miss him so badly..

♥

Return home juz now around 8plus. Adan sent me back home. I was at Queenstown helped out with the kendarat..it was fatt's cuzzin was gettin married. So zahirah, eynah, aieen and liza was dere too to help. Notink much lar actually..unfotunately we took a little pics juz now.



i present you the fairytale ice cream - LIME SHERBET.

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Atas Nama Cinta

aku wanita yang punya cinta dihati
ada diriku dan dirinya dalam hidupku
mengapa terlambat cintamu t'lah termiliki
sedang diriku dengan dia tak begitu cinta

mengapa yang lain bisa
mendua dengan mudahnya
namun kita terbelenggu
dalam ikatan tanpa cinta

reff: atas nama cinta hati ini tak mungkin terbagi
sampai nanti hingga aku mati
cinta ini hanya untuk engkau

atas nama cinta kurelakan jalanku merana
asal engkau akhirnya denganku
ku bersumpah atas nama cinta

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Anyone kind hearted wanna buy for me DURIANS!!!!!......arGggh!..i'm fuckin cravings for it since the past last weeks..damn! Anitink tat got to do with durians will do..durian ice-cream, durian cake, donut durian fillings..Juz anitink i will eat. *drOoLing*...now i hv to start job hunting before ma sis start to yell at me..gaWd!...i'm fuckin bored with lyf now..no skewl. no werk. Wat ma lyf gonna be in 10 years tym...

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He left us without a word..he left us for good. God love him more. Yea people do cum and go in lyf. Tell ur love ones around you tat you love them and tat you appreciate them and treasure ur every bits of seconds with them before its too late. In the memory of Sharul Nizam Rustam....may you rest in peace..Al-fateha...AMIN.

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adan i miss euu....

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