♥ it been always euu

Saturday, October 31, 2009

You know what...well i guess if tis will make you thrill den lets do it. I will play your game aite..i aint no rush in the game. Once im done laying all ma play cards..den i guess its time. Cos i got nothing left of me. I will fade away without you knowing it. And dun blame me for anitink cos i did play the game right. I leave only when im done with my cards..thats the rule.

Label: its sickening okay..

♥

11:55 AM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

wats happenin to me??...i miss him okay.fark.yess i do..badlllyyy....

Label: for fark i may sounds desperate but im NOT!
do u even care?

♥

5:21 AM

Saturday, October 24, 2009

the first kiss

the first kiss that i wish it never last
as the world spin around me..
everything seems too fast,
with you, thats where i wanna be.

you pulled me closed to you
and your smell filled the air..
the smell that makes me high each time
and that makes me addicted to you.

your kiss....
the sweet taste of your lips..
love the way how it feels so right on my lips.

i prayed.and GOD heard my prayers
and send me an angel from the heavens' above.
tis angel came from nowhere,and in no time got close,
not to me but to my heart.

as days pass....
i started to learn how to fall again.
not to anyone but to this angel
and this angel is no other but you.

♥lynn

label: i realise i kept checkin ma mobile every now n den.
i dunno why i kept waiting..bt i guess i'll juz wait.

♥

2:27 AM

Friday, October 23, 2009

for the first time in a long time,
i felt so happy, so rejoiced.
you showed me there was hope after tragedy.
you became my bestfriend.

sometimes i wonder if life is really worth it,
then i look at your smile and i know it is.

the times we laughed and the times we shared,
were priceless beyond anything i could imagine.
we never knew the meaning of uncertainty and difficulty
and you taught me new ways of life

you made me feel like i could trust and love again.
i was caught.

maybe today...
you'll look at me the way you did yesterday,
when all my faults were set aside
and for once, i felt perfect.

maybe today...
my cheeks wont hurt from the amount of smiles you place on my face
and the amount of butterflies
you create in my tummy..

a broken heart is what i feel
it leads to flowing tears
the sorrow from this loneliness
gives way to deeper fears..
i'm hurt inside from losing you

i should have known better than to fall in love with you
its all just a fading memory
i should have known nothing would come of this
i should have known you wouldn't catch me
i should have known you would leave me

in the absence of your love...
my happiness has gone.

if you're asking if i want you now..
then you're all wrong.
cos' i dont want you
but i need you ma love.

Label: Juz leave and dun ever come back..
Juz leave me like what everyone did.

♥

6:51 AM

Thursday, October 22, 2009

bitter H.E.A.R.T.

so far it is to feel your heart
especially when play our games apart.
trying to understand you...and never will..
for you,this broken heart will heal.

with you this heart im lost to you
with you this heart where i want to be
yes i do...
cos' nothing have left of me.

ever since the day you came,
things wont be the same..
the dreams i dream,that all involve you
the possibilities i see and the things we can do

the way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where i want to be.
the way that i feel when you're by my side
a sense of completion and overwhelming pride

so far it is to feel your heart
especially when we play our games apart.
trying to understand you...and never will..
for you this broken heart will heal.

So with this lost soul.....lost heart..
knowing that loving you,i find so hard.

p.s. its not what i intend to write actually..
mine or your perspective? confuse.

slipped away..

maybe if it didnt happen,things gonna be different now.the day i dont feel you animore.the day i know that you gonna fade away.and you left...without a word and not convincing enough for a reason that i can accept for the facts which i know ur lying to me and worst..to YOURSELF.

i always needed time on my own..and never thought tat i badly need you there when i cry.you make me believe in myself .make me strong.told me everythings gonna be alright when times are bad.you wld be there for me be it up or down moments.totally pamper me.shower me with your unconditional love.you told me that u wld love me and no one cld ever replace me..why? why you have to lie? why wld you do that?

dont want it to be you for the reason for me to be this way...
but i guess its you that can pick up the pieces left of me.

Label: if you had to leave,i wish that you would juz leave.

♥

8:26 AM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

im just so helpless..dwelling on past pain, heartbreak or loss will leaves me vulnerable to further attack or reopens old wounds. it can ultimately consume me, particularly if it is ma own heart that has betrayed myself. thoughts of getting even will make things worse. taking each betrayal or loss too personally becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy so that when i do finally let down my guard and trust again, i can find myself embroiled in the same emotional drama i vowed to avoid. being on the defensive or carrying a chip on my shoulder practically ensures tension or wounded pride and ma self-esteem may suffer as a result. certain loss is irrevocable. the ensuing crisis can be a turning point for ma relationship or love life, but only if i am willing to let go and take a chance.

p.s. Should i?

Label: moving on is what i wanted to..
but am afraid to because of you.

♥

12:39 AM

Saturday, October 17, 2009

its totally sucks to be me though...

~it may be just a lil tiny white pebble..but that keeps me moving..

♥

5:06 AM

Im tired of being here, surpressed by all my childish fears.
-can i juz spend the whole night crying?
cos i noe im gonna be alright..

Lookin out over...
blocks of terraces,
line of trees..
speeding cars,
soothing sound of the wind,
cricking crickets..
ships horning thru the night(not kelloggs boat)
under the dark sky,
counting & gazing stars..

one day not gonna be alone..
but together with you, i wanna bring you..
to where we can lie, under the dark sky,
like i always daydreamin of..in our own bubble
gazing stars, blabbering shits,laugh till we cry..

this....i promise you.

Label: If i told you that all i ever wanted to do was to run
into ur arms and kiss you in the pouring rain...
Would you believe me?

♥

2:54 AM

Friday, October 16, 2009

ample waves, soft breeze..
as kelloggs boat passing by...
where laughter is timeless,
with tears rolling..
and drifting to our own bubble.
wishing that the whole night could be ours.

there shouldnt be a reason to be with you.
cos all i knew that if there is..
the reason is you...

strange feelings..
i feel that ur special..
special in a way..
i felt that ur honest..
honest in a way..
i felt that ur sincere..
sincere in a way..
in a way that sumone must appreciate...yes..appreciate..

i feel you...yes..you made me feel you.
work is great..great seeing you.
your presence..near or far..i feel you.
days goes by..there's sumtink about you.
days goes by...i got to know you.

so whats more the reason could it be...

Label: still figuring it out..

♥

8:19 PM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

im goin crazyyy!!..sooner or later. Juz came back from work and i got less den 4hrs to start ma murnin job..

Label: addicted to you...

♥

5:30 AM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Sounds crazy...but yea..i guess i juz did it again..

Label: you decide..

♥

2:44 PM

Monday, October 12, 2009

All i want is for you to be happy..its really hurt me so, looking at you tis way..feelin helpless and useless when i noe i cant do anitink bout it. I dun want to be wit you for onli good times but also for bad times. I never ever feel tat ur a burden to me..cos you, my friend, ur someone very close to ma heart even though i was busy wit ma schedule and stuff..glad you understand tat. Dun ever tink tat i neglect you..cos i noe..i dun want to lose you like i lose someone dear to me..the hurting part is tat, she had ma replacement..

So ma love, remember tat in terms of bad times, deres always someone out dere will be dere and wanted to be dere for you..not onli me but you always have ur family and ur love ones to be wit. I noe you as a strong person and can face up wit any obsticles. Dun let anitink comes in ur way. Concentrate in wat ur achieving for..and go for it. I noe you can do it. Cheer up babe!

Herny Natra....u'll always be someone very dear to me. and will always do. Love you bitch.

♥

2:44 PM

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Okay i cant sleep thinking bout tis...

Why we women are born to be a selfish creature? i dunno why but i noe its bothering me....fark.

♥

3:07 AM

Friday, October 09, 2009

Label: You yet to know me..

The BITCH is back.

♥

10:01 PM

Dear Azlini,

Here is your love horoscope for Thursday, October 8:

Double lives are best left to superheroes. Don't be one person with your sweetie when it's just the two of you, and then act like someone else when you're with a group. Be yourself all the time.

Label: i love us..

♥

12:35 AM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Too desperate to stop these tears tat kept shedding over again..and all i could think of is ma dad. i really hate it when i felt tis way....could i juz fade away...juz fade away and disappear. the feelin of ripping ma heart..and yell ma lungs out. slit it again and again...sight of blood and the sweet taste of pleasure and satisfaction..

Label: As the world passing by...
its like book with empty pages..

♥

3:40 AM

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

many people will walk in and out of ur life, but only true friends will always leave footprints in ur heart. to handle yourself, use ur head; to handle others, use ur heart. anger is only one letter short of danger. if someone betrays you one, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is ur fault. great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people. he who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. beautiful young people are accidents of nature, beautiful old people are works of art. learn from the mistakes of others. you cant live long enough to make them all by yourself. yesterday is history. today is a gift. tomorrow is mystery. thats why they call it the present.

♥

3:29 PM

Monday, October 05, 2009

Nothing much i can say
as i put up both my hands and pray,
GOD...please make me strong..
forever love is what i longed.

♥

4:24 AM

You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
You're always the mysterious one with
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.

Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees..

These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart..

You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art,
Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.

You'd teach me of honest things,
Things that were daring, things that were clean.
Things that knew what an honest dollar did bring.
I hid my soiled hands behind my back.
Somewhere along the line, I must've got Off track with you.

Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn, Somebody more like myself.

You took your coat off,
You stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.

Label: Lost somewhere....somewhere out there..

♥

12:32 AM

Friday, October 02, 2009

whats wrong wit me today?? Juz because of 'something' tat can really make me feel so down. And i mean really down. Am i being too sensitive today?

There was time when u picked up pieces of me...bit by bit..
Leaving me to trust u to be able to.
And now..there i go..left broken again.
Pieces of ME.
Was not left to be pick up again,but i, myself need to do it.
Alone i must do it...and im gonna stand up stronger tis time..

p.s. Moving on is what i wanna do,
but afraid to bcos of u..

♥

11:18 PM