i juz woke up from ma sleep.
everytink seem so real.
yet every single thing still lingers in ma head.
now tat im wide awake, im gonna stand up and be strong.

im moving on to the light..
where he can see me..see me clear.

wadever been done is gone.
i take it like juz a dream.
a dream tat i never been expected.

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wat the hell!
im farkin still wide awake..
i dun even get to slip.and now i have to get ready for work.
all the best lynn at work.hah

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fark cos im still awake..
workin later in the evening and i really need atleast 6-8hrs of slip. -_-'

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why do i have to wake up at tis hour?..
the best thing is tat, i realised i was cryin in ma slip.
and now how hard i tried to get back to slip, i noe i cant.
neither i get much slip nor eatin right tis few days.
and all thanks to 'ice-man'.
but i need him. cos i been too caught up workin and keep fallin sick.
so he helps me alot. so i can still keep on goin.










Label: she got 1 week left..

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how long i have to be tis way?
how long i have to hide?
could it be better?
could it be sulkier?

i dun need you.
not animore.
i mean it.
yes indeed i dun need you ever.







label: mum need me at tis point of time..

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Mum was not in really good state.shes really not stable in doin any daily activities yet..im gettin worried and not knowing and sure wat to do now.
why? why it have to turn out tis way?


Dear God,....
please...make me strong and help me face tis..
i need ur guidance and show me the right way.amin.

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When i care,you said im not.im not being myself and it was juz saying,and no actions.maybe i tried too hard.too hard too believe tat im really doin it.honestly i got no time to play tis game aite.im gettin sick of it.gettin sick of me always the one whos tryin to take care of others feelings.things juz gettin out of hand.claiming tat u wanna help by tryin to understand me or supporting me? which from the day one you never have.i dun need financially support or wadever fark from anyone..cos i been doin it myself alone wit all ma hardwork.all im farkin need from you is juz mentally support.tats wat i need the most.but do you even understand wat i been through? no you farkin dont.i juz need sum space and time for myself.cant u put tat in ur numbSkull? all tis while nobody been dere for me,so i dun need anyone's sympathy cos tat will onli make me sick to core.








Label: PLEASE....i need every single one to leave me alone.period.

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i linger in the doorway
of alarm clock screaming
monsters calling my name
let me stay
where the wind will whisper to me
where the raindrops, as they're falling, tell a story

in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

dont say im out of touch
with this rampant chaos, your reality
i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
the nightmare i built my own world to escape

swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
oh, how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light





~imaginary

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why u even care in the first place?
i screwed up everytink rite.i noe.










Label:dont bother..

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Just go away...

im far of better alone.

SO LEAVE ME ALONE!

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