Todae was ma first dae at werk. Things goes on well for me. Dere loads of werk for me. They gave one whole cupboard for ma paper werk to be done. I managed to finish up half of the cupboard. Cant wait for another two weeks...hahaks..im still thinking of wat to get for him for our anny. Hmmm.....till here den. I better get to bed now. I dun wan to wakE up late for werk tml.

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You make me cry a thousand tears
Of pain and sorrow
You make me cry a thousand tears
Of fear and loneliness

Of all the harsh words you said
All of them ripped my heart apart
All of them made me reach for that razor
As my blood trickled down on the floor

My blood stained wrist
With my tear stained face
Wrapping my wrists up
So I wouldn't bleed to death

As much as I long for death
Dying scares the hell out of me
As does the way to get there
As sometimes it feels like a relieve

But on one night
Your words broke my heart again
As I ran my way to the bathroom
To find that familiar razor

As this time my tears covered my sight
I didn't saw how deep I cut
All I could feel was the relieve
Of my pain and sorrow, that was taken away

To never wake up ever again
It was my relief in life
To never breath in this toxic air
To just simply die

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Take me for who I am, not for what you believe me to be. Look first to understand me...not to judge me, know that I am complex yet simple, a challenge not to be overcome nor understood until the simplicity of true acceptance is achieved. Also understand that my own personal individuality rules my actions as well as my soul therefore I see no problem in clashing with this reality, infact I go out of my way to do so. Last understand that I often speak in riddles, as both writing and music are my passion. All I ask is that you pay attention then my words won't seem so intimidating. Simply put life in a song...and this is my melody.

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Juz woke up..i slept at ard 8plus in the murnin. Cant get back to sleep after talkin to adan on the phone. I ponder...what shld i do now?..ma back hurts, ma head hurts, ma leg hurts and especially ma heart...its hurts too. Feel so helpless and useless. I'm sorie i cant do anitink bout it. Dun ever tell me to sacrifice everytink when you dun even thought of ur selfish way...i'm juz hurt......and it still hurts..

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