Was fighting back all those tears throughout the whole night. Trust myself tat i have let it go. But the pain is just too real. The place which took me to where we have started. It all happen 7 years ago...those were the days i took it for granted. Taking granted of her love because i trust her for not leaving ma life. I didnt cherish and treasure her till she left me. Then i realised, how much i really do love her. Its only i realised after she left. Why? And i noe it was a little too late. I just didnt noe how to show how much i do love her back then. But i noe..deep in me i truly love tis woman tat i didnt noe how to show it. The woman tat i always look up on, the woman tat i used to call sister like ma own flesh and blood. The feeling of she leaving me is the same way how i felt for blaming myself for ma dad to leave me. The grieves tat i still hold on to these days..life wont be the same like how it used to be..cause i cant find pieces of me left. And she is my pieces of me.
How i wish last night, i would just hold on to her. Just hold on to her and never let it go..promises tat we made..she made, was in vain. All was such a lie...L...............I..............E........LIE!!!!
With the weather like tis...i just felt like locking in ma room, watching as the rain pours heavily and just cry throughout the whole day.if tats make me ok.

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