finally.....i manage to let it out everything. i dunno how long i been holding up these tears. i just cant do this animore..i miss him so badly. the love that i dun get it in return. our love came from different frequency i can say. i believe he wont understand the meaning behind it. never will. why? why you have to betray it. i love you more den i love anything else in this world. i dun even care if one day you would beat me up till i'm dying to bleed. atleast i noe that i live to love you. but why?loving two women at the same time? will that satisfy you. how i wish my late sweetheart is still breathing..wishing that when i look at her,its like seeing you in another form. i always said that,she will have your round alluring eyes,your nose,ears and as naughty as you. so seeing her everytime will make me feels that ure still around me. everyday of my daily life is all bout you. how could i even living it everyday without you out of my mind. i was wrong. i'm not strong enough to do this. i put a false front just to make myself feel okay. so no one could annoyed me everytime when they asked bout me. every night, either you would just read me bedtime stories or sing me lullaby and cradle me to sleep. i know....i was too pampered by you. but knowing that your love was shared with another woman, where am i? which part of your heart that i been placed? YOU'RE THE MAIN PERSON THAT CREATED HATRED!!. its sucks to be in the situation where, you love someone whole heartedly but you just cant be with him/her. Why??...why god created LOVE if love never exist. :')